Running with flames

2012-01-25T12:48:00.001+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=egtm0XwShOc
What if you jump, and the arms that catch you, catch you by suprise?

2012-01-22T12:26:00.003+08:00

Hands held tight, through the night

I cant let go.

2012-01-22T01:51:00.003+08:00

The constant need to be better.

I've been wanting, striving to be better than what I can really be. Sometimes it makes me sick. Sick in the stomach. So sick that I feel that I need to throw up, or just regurgitate something out of my system. I forgot how to live.

"I need to be better." Phrases like these pop up in my head whenever I get my results. Even though its an 'A', I tell myself that I need to be better. I beat up myself over a 'B' and I kill myself whenever I see a "C". I just refuse to stop... I want to stop. But I just cant. I want to switch off for a day and watch the world go by, and not care about a single thing.

Watching movies, sometimes I get jealous of the various characters. Them living their dreams, doing what they love.

There is a void that must be filled. You said, 'look for Me, and i will find.'

Truth.

2012-01-18T00:46:00.002+08:00

What is the truth?

There are so many version of what seems to be the truth.

Debates. Arguments. We all fight for what we think or believe is true.

Now, what if what you've believe all your life is a lie. What if a certain revelation came, and now everything you know is a lie. What now?

Finding the truth isn't easy. Especially now in this day and age. We all seek to know the truth. Different doctrines, theories and teachings are the result. Convincing some might be. But what if what you were taught to believe that may seem to be the truth is actually .... a lie?

One would fine credible information to back up one's own theory. History, science, common sense, ethos and pathos. All presented neatly. A result of human emotion? Believing what might be the truth but in fact isn't.

Searching....

2012-01-15T14:05:00.002+08:00

I'm so tired. I think being tired is an understatement. I'm exhausted. Then again, its being exhausted may also be an understatement.

I'm in disbelief. I fail to see why this can be done.. at all. But somehow I remain optimistic. I don't know why, till this day, this is the only thing I've believed in. Maybe in hope that whatever I've worked for, or hoped for will come to past.

Last night, during worship, somehow I felt lifted. "I'm smiling upon you" a phase kept repeating and repeating in my head. I couldn't help but smile back.

2011-08-04T08:25:00.002+08:00

Deleted my old post.

So much that I want to say, but dont know how to put it in words.

You.

What say you

2011-08-03T22:45:00.001+08:00

Subjectivity.
Varies from subject to subject.
With a wide spectrum of possibilities.
What is necessary to one,
May not be to another.

Wants and needs.
Requirements versus desires.

Question.
Is it worth it?
Then again, subjectivity.

Satisfaction.
The constant pursue of “happiness”
what will be enough?
Will man ever be satisfied?
Then again, requirements versus desires.

Subjectivity.